What can one expect from a young lady like me whose future, past, & present vanished in space? Who can ever accept me as the Ultimate Alchemist, who herself has already shed off the Id, Ego & Superego?

A spiritual prodigy since Childhood, almost when 10 years old- I started practicing Kriya Yoga and had unknowingly got initiated into Dhakshinacharik Tantra Sadhana. The silent yet powerful powers of Tantra had suddenly uttered one good silent evening.

Yes, I know I had suffered from a massive Kundalini psychosis due to my sudden awakening. The incident had not just limited to multiple psychiatric hospitalization or rehabilitation but also I had to face utter humiliation and disgrace to my chastity & Psychology for around 10 years.

But Should I stop myself, in my present and future days? The answer from my inner self was simple a big fat NO. I believe that, now it's time again to rise high and cherish my own Unlimited Potential & Vibration.
I often say,
“Many Buddhas lived, many Buddhas will live, & many Buddha are still living. They are like a blessing in disguise, always dressed up in a non-uniformed Spiritual Agent look, serving the Entire Universe."

Now one who deals with me or will be going to deal with me must decide about how they take me on their life's journey, who themselves bear excessive Pandemonium within them.



1) The question is that would you like to prove that you are honest to a person who is an enlightened being?

2) And the second part, would even an enlightened person worry about him or her being declared or accepted to be an enlightened one from you?

3) The third & last one, is there a mandate for the enlightened persons to dress up like a nun or a monk, & lead a life of a recluse or hermit?

Well, to me, it is again a big

No.

Why am I saying so?

I am saying so because, leaving house and livelihood is not and never can be an option. It is just a way out for those who never wants distraction or rather to say, cannot afford to manage any distraction.

1) Why should someone need something to get focused upon to get the ultimate liberation? 2) Why should one adopt the life of a monk as a new embodiment, for spiritual growth?
3) Why would he or she need to leave the old and adopt the new?

If someone never gets distracted from anything or everything, that he or she may get to face in everyday life, or is used to, she is already a spiritual being.

I am living a life of abstinence and is a celibate for last 2 years from writing this book. I have lead a life of Penance, austerity, celibacy, & abstinence out of my own choice not by any compulsion. During this phase, I acquired great capacities on the clairvoyance theory. But I did not and never intend to shed off my old and adopt a new lifestyle pattern to gain my spiritual knowledge or mystical powers.

It is because I consider everything and anything as energy and this includes me, me, and anything or everything that are connected or created by me like say- astral/temporal /celestial thoughts and works vis-a-vis. It is not just dealing with touching, sensing, seeing at the 5 sensory perception level. It is beyond the 5- senses.

One needs to go beyond his 5 senses. It is the usage and quality experience of extra sensory perception level. It can be achieved mainly using or activating 6 & 7th sense organs, Pineal gland and the pituitary gland.

Now whether I have reached enlightenment or not?



I would say, I don't have any idea to answer it nor even willing to answer, if I ever come to know it. Moreover, I have no interest in wasting my time and energy to inquire about the same by demystifying my intrinsic or default node brain networks. The other side must get affirmed with the answers that I give and the way I behave while dealing with them almost on regular basis. I believe, Enlightenment is like a flow of a river. It wets, cultivates, riches the soil it touches or passes by.


It is and should also bear a nature of enlightenment of the enlightened and liberated persons. Unless the river meets the sea or the ocean, and the person's consciousness reach and merge with the ultimate, the surge or desire of sheer seeking and inquisitiveness will be there. Some enlightened person’s needs to bear ego too. Otherwise, many things will be left undone if one is satisfied & gratified of him of being or getting enlightened. Him so, leaving his own life purpose in the mere play of Universal Destiny and Intelligence.

People only get the fruits out from of their labour. In a book called Lal Kitab, it is called a book of Karmic Depts. So whether a man is doing some good works in the world or not, whether he is in multiple sexual intercourse or not, whether he is fully involved in a religion, his practices in spirituality, or not, the result or effect of his deeds or specifically saying karma for his total liveration or mukti, will not depend on these. The liberation of a man depends on how much conscious they are while performing any act, good or bad. There is no explanation, anywhere in any famous scripture, that a man's severance from his own Moha-Maya or lust-desires actually helps him in any way towards total liberation, if he is not consciously doing any act or work. However, if he observes his consciousness and awareness, being highly involved in an activitity without any expections from the outcome, his any choice on either paths of spirituality or religion, will be able to reach the pinnacle of success in a greater way.

I am not someone, who is supposed to be called a sex maniac or nymphomaniac. I went highly unsound in those days, and was raped cum abused.The matter being highly sensitive and subjudicied, I intend not to discuss here. And it is also not to be preconceived in someone’s mind that one can acclaim their desires, lust or greed in whatsoever manner they want to portray them or fit myself in a frame, as per their own whims.

That a lady having or bearing a similar story alike me, can get to bed unanimously or even can be asked as well. I must even not to be considered a free access chick or substantial supernova remnant of information over the social media or public media e-platforms. The same stands same even in general public or telecommunication based conversation as well.

That I must also don't think that I need to give teachings, and schooling every time, I get confronted with the societal pathogens like these humans. Hence thought of writing it here in one go.

Moreover it is a true fact that I am helpless, money-less, family less, unsupported victimized woman, of both my state of Tripura and my country India. I know it very well, believe it and also whole halfheartedly endorse it. I have no problem. I hope others too shall not. Also I pay a certain amount of heed to believe and take responsibilities of the same.
Now being in this position, it must not be preconceived by anyone or everyone, that I am not professional, my personality or character is loose, my mental conditions are not stable, I am not qualified enough, I can't take a stand in my life when everything was or is going against me. Nor it should be thought by a certain kind of social activists, woman activists, and mostly female communists having big shot NGOs or presently serving the ruling woman morcha parties after getting converted from communism.

That I, or my cases, or my articles or my influence is like giving oil to many ministers. Also my knowledge and qualities along with my experience cum exposure is worthless, or rather I bear a dirty mind, an evil spirited person, or just another worthless piece of shit.

One must remember that one cannot win over anything in this planet by forced opinions. Especially when it is upon Indian Judicial systems, & Indian Constitution. Also bearing the same faith, one can never win a long and strategic case at least that of mine, just by forcing opinions.
Above all, their forced opinions can't impact a thin hair influence on my endeavors both at personal, professional, social, political, judicial levels.

So, much so that, a verily less empathetic persons must take a leap of courage, to even think about me, like this, the next time, after completing the reading of this article at its full length. Uttering such kind of statements on me, or on my character, or behaving or showing patterns of communication similar like this, is like distant lands apart between one's good faith at personal front and about him being a true human.

The underlying meaning is one actually don't get about what others or the next person actually feels or thinks while telling about themselves or their problems.

This may not be a serious one as of now but this may be one, if one doesn’t start working on it sooner than the soonest. Also it may lead them into trouble & wilderness sometime alike my accused parties and others in upcoming days.

This article may not be taken or read very seriously at the present moment, for professionals serving the paramilitary or home department of my state or at central level, or with the so called professional lawyers and Para legal staffs.

Even the same for different level of judicial officers and judges sitting in a position with a die-hard promise of serving India upon good faith. May be the same stands fit for the ruling or opposite government bearers and ministers. But if the said personals don’t wish to start working on it, it may lead them into a certain level of chaos and societal entropy in near future. It is not to be considered as a threat or a warning, but as information for awareness.

The root cause of the problem being on the use and choice of words, language, body movements, behaviors, expressions and the timings when one communicate with me or my related stuffs. Also a fact majoring a sprouting concern is a certain level of precognition or preconceived ideas, beliefs, notions, and approaches, work first at one's level, when someone like me is talking to them, telling about them, about their business, their problems etc & etc.. Vis-a-vis.

One may give me at some point of their life time, enough clarifications about their own statements, but noting can heal the stink that one had given me or is still giving me at my personal cum professional front .

Let me be very honest here itself, One needs to grow up much more high to handle a case or a person like me, including raising their awareness, consciousness, and perception The activities going around me, my related matters, good or bad, favor or non favoring , just seem to be quite immature and a domestic playfulness between infants and kids. Moreover, one can never have a certain level of idea about me and my connections, both at celestial or temporal arena.

So time and again, would definitely request everyone, not to get along with me with wrong ideas, notions, belief systems, or even bear some kind of morbid minded attitudes any more.

Some natives and their progenies are there who don't do this, intentionally. Probably, they feel sorry later, or ashamed of them, and stop having anymore contact with me. The said mistake happens at their subconscious level, and one remains almost unknown. Actually, one doesn't know that they are mostly processing the stuffs when they are hearing. But unknowingly they are overlooking the inner meaning, the depth, or level of sensitivity within. Also to be very much precise and to give a clarity, I would say, that, there is gap of millions between hearing and listening.
What is my capacity? I am not even a size & Power of an ant or an earthworm, with respect to these pity souls. An ant or an earthworm is however, never valued by bloody humans. Whether it is you, me or they!

If humans do not exist, the mother earth and nature shall surely flourish to a great extent. Present days are very much evident to a certain level, thou very, very minimal.

But if all the ants or earthworms in this planet do not exit, the entire nature and planet will collapse that too in a very short span of time. Never mind, In India we say, Vasudeva Kutumbakkam, meaning, we are all one family.

As per the words of swami Vivekananda, “Everything that makes for oneness is truth.” One must not forget it.